i am not enough,
a letter from you to your parent,
I am sorry, I am not enough, mom/dad
but it’s hard for me to live up to expectations
difficult to live every day like it’s not mine
it’s suffocating to chase dreams you both saw
but that changed didn’t it, our paths crossed
things aligned, we lost all the mayhem
we walked down the happy path,
but still, it’s hard for me to live with myself
because in 20 so years,
not once have I felt enough
not for a single moment have I felt I have done well
nothing I do is real until you don’t see them,
not once have I heard you say, that you are happy,
or that you are proud of me,
but, you know something, mom/dad -
all I ever wanted was to make you proud of me-
but I don’t think it’s happening in this life
no matter if I become the president of a country,
or CEO of Disney - you’ll still want more,
& I’ll still be suffocating, waiting to breathe -
waiting for your validation.
