that smile is all I really miss
or maybe it's the walks
what exactly do you love about your partner?
it's been sixty-seven days and I haven't left this room
there's no reason to, the streets don't have her in them
there's nothing to look forward to,
I mean there needs to be a reason to go out.
there's no one to overeat with,
or no one to visit the churches with
walking without her is difficult
the hands feel empty, & the gap beside me
feels like a black hole sucking in everything
taking my smiles away from me, I still smile
though I doubt its sincerity -
i mean, i am here but i am not really here
lost in the hills,
thinking of the sky she might be looking at
these empty devices aren't enough to communicate
emoticons and words can only do so much
running from job, to job - task to task, i keep myself busy
i pray that i stay distracted and lost in work
afraid to think for a second, fearing the darkness in me
darkness she kept at bay, but now is creeping back in
the rain dulls away the pain and madness,
but rains don't last forever.
bshubhamb